Thursday, January 12, 2012 //i'm the rockstar 4:52 PM
thankful
long wordy post...
last year was quite a year to me, with loads of ups and downs and many lessons learnt the hard way. i'm thankful for the people who has always been by my side throughout the whole year and giving me the support when i needed them and letting me know that they'll always be here to catch me when i fall.
i know who are the people i can fully rely on that would be there to remind me when i'm trusting people blindly or over exerting myself going beyond what i could, and offering me hugs and tissues and kisses and pratically whatever i want when i'm bawling, refusing to get out of bed. my dearest Stella and Eckerene would know how horrendous i look when my face is all puffed up from crying too much.
And also my favourite bunch of girls who might not be there physically but i know they are always with me mentally and would provide me a listening ear as and when i needed them, my bbgs <3
i'm sorry for always being absent in meetups but my heart is with you girls always.
my good ol pals. my men and my 2 cutiepies that'll always be there for me. even though we're all busy with our own lives, i'm glad that we'll never drift no longer how muh time we spend apart. we can talk about anything and everything and practically to me, gender does not matter at all when i'm with them^^
in boring classes and rushed project deadlines, i'll have my always gan jiong poly dudes to back me up, reminding me of test, deadlines, projects, tips... etc to make sure i dont fail my modules. making me laugh when i fall asleep in class. helping me lie to the tutors so i dont get debarred for low attendance. HAHHA. and i'm glad we're back to normal.
not to forget my awesome RC8! red camp have always been the highlight of my poly life and i'm glad that my last red camp was a really great one with awesome fellow SLs and campers! throughout redcamp, i've really learnt alot. like how to communicate with a big bunch of people, confidence to speak infront of a big crowd, how to bring out that something extra in the campers and how to give that something extra to red camp. the sense of satisfaction that you've made a positive impact on people is beyond the description of words. i'm sad to say that redcamp 8 is the last redcamp that i'll have and i'll always remember the wonderful people i've come to know of throughout my red camp journey in RC6, RC,7 and RC8. SPARTANS AHWOOH!!!~~
my dearest ben ho, i know we've been through so many up and downs within the 7 months that we're together but we disnt give up! thanks for tolerating my paranoia. i love you. i'm glad that i we're all better now, that we're working things out. i just hope that we'll be without lies cause no doubt i've placed my all into this. For us, i've carried the packages that i never would and tolerated the pain that i never could. i know its soon but i'm serious about this, that i want you to be the one i would be married to. so please dont ever disappoint me anymore. i'm glad to have found you. so glad ^^
& too, my ever bullying but comforting siblings and their other half who have always been there for me and constantly worried about my welfare. i'm happy that we're so close, that we're able to talk about everything under the sun as i i know siblings that hardly talk to each other and for us , we cant stop talking. <3
but other than all the good stuffs, there were point of sadness that i've yet to mentioned. Something that i've once regarded so dearly ended but i'm glad that we made space for the ones we were meant to meet. i've also been quite a disappointment to some people as well, i'm deeply guilty but still we all learn from our mistakes and for those who entered and left my life, i still do thank you for being there once upon a time when i needed someone.
then there are the people whose names shall not be mentioned thats been living in the dark or trying to stab me from the dark, please get your facts right but still i thank you for making me stronger and for revealing the fragile side of me which i always try to hide away. putting the problems infront of me that i've always been running away from. i do understand how bad it feels so i tried my best to make things better or you, so i'm living with a clear conscience.
i've learnt alot from the sunday afternoon practices with gefang and zhiyangs place every week, seriously, ALOT. though i'm not good now yet but how i was last year is so much worse. HAHAHHA and then remembering the friday nights that were dedicated to singing and the laughter filled class with the ultimate jiche laoshi. without you, it'll never be the same. i could remember us working hard for performances, from planning of harmony to costumes and makeup... till now, it still tears me up inside, its just so silly of you to go just like that. you're one of the strongest females that i've ever known and i really do miss you so much.
hokay i think its pretty much enough for now!
well happy chinese new year to everyone!
