can i say i wasn't disappointed? well "trust your friends", now i do & i will always trust them in the future cause i'm utterly wrong this time. dejection? yeah, i cannot deny that kind of heartache. it was so darn clear cut. friendship? relationship? they are the same, sometimes, you just can't let it go. i refused to admit that it had drifted cause i thought someday the currents might flow backwards. i even opened my heart to take it all back but you've made the decision. & i shall respect it. ex-classmates we'll always be. but hello my dear ex-classmate, i think you've abandoned something somewhere, & i thought it might be "friend" a word better than classmate? i guess i might be dumb or growing bimbo-tic to actually think "oh, she'll be back, i'm sure she'll. cause shes just part of us, theres that bond, she'll never actually say bye to us." a lesson to learn, not all things can be fixed, and you dont always make the decision. maybe the misunderstanding is big & dont wanna clear things up anymore. & there, misunderstanding... is it really even misunderstanding?

i just need to pour out my feelings, that idiotic feeling of seeing yourself as an idiot.

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