BETTYCHANMALICHAN.

Thursday, January 12, 2012 //i'm the rockstar 4:52 PM

thankful

long wordy post...

last year was quite a year to me, with loads of ups and downs and many lessons learnt the hard way. i'm thankful for the people who has always been by my side throughout the whole year and giving me the support when i needed them and letting me know that they'll always be here to catch me when i fall.

i know who are the people i can fully rely on that would be there to remind me when i'm trusting people blindly or over exerting myself going beyond what i could, and offering me hugs and tissues and kisses and pratically whatever i want when i'm bawling, refusing to get out of bed. my dearest Stella and Eckerene would know how horrendous i look when my face is all puffed up from crying too much.

And also my favourite bunch of girls who might not be there physically but i know they are always with me mentally and would provide me a listening ear as and when i need to, my bbgs <3

i'm sorry for always being absent in meetups but my heart is with you girls always.

my good ol pals. my men and my 2 cutiepies that'll always be there for me. even though we're all busy with our own lives i'm glad that we'll never drift no longer how muh time we spend apart. we can talk about anything and everything and practically to me, gender does not matter at all when i'm with them^^

in boring classes and rushed project deadlines, i'll have my always gan jiong poly dudes to back me up, reminding me of test, deadlines, projects, tips... etc to make sure i dont fail my modules. making me laugh when i fall asleep in class. helping me lie to the tutors so i dont get debarred for low attendance. HAHHA. and i'm glad we're back to normal.

not to forget my awesome RC8! red camp have always been the highlight of my poly life and i'm glad that my last red camp was a really great one with awesome fellow SLs and campers! throughout redcamp, i've really learnt alot. like how to communicate with a big bunch of people, confidence to speak infront of a big crowd, how to bring out that something extra in the campers and how to give that something extra to red camp. the sense of satisfaction that you've made a positive impact on people is beyond the description of words. i'm sad to say that redcamp 8 is the last redcamp that i'll have and i'll always remember the wonderful people i've come to know of throughout my red camp journey in RC6, RC,7 and RC8. SPARTANS AHWOOH!!!~~

my dearest ben ho, i know we've been through so many up and downs and thanks for tolerating my paranoia. i love you. i'm glad that i we're all better now, that we're working things out. i just hope that we'll be without lies cause no doubt i've placed my all into this. For us, i've carried the packages that i never would and tolerated the pain that i never could. i know its soon and i'm serious about this, that i want you to be the one i would be married to. so please dont ever disappoint me anymore. i'm glad to have found you. so glad ^^

& too, my ever bullying but comforting siblings and their other half who have always been there for me and constantly worried about my welfare. i'm happy that we're so close now, that we're able to talk about everything under the sun as i i know siblings that hardly talk to each other and for us , we cant stop talking. <3

but other than all the good stuffs, i've also been quite a disappointment to some people as well, i'm deeply guilty but still we all learn from our mistakes and for those who entered and left my life, i still do thank you for being there once upon a time when i needed someone.

then there are the people whose names shall not be mentioned thats been living in the dark or trying to stab me from the dark, please get your facts right but still i thank you for making me stronger and for revealing the fragile side of me which i always try to hide away. putting the problems infront of me that i've always been running away from. i do understand how bad it feels so i tried my best to make things better or you, so i'm living with a clear conscience.

i've learnt alot from the sunday afternoon practices with gefang and zhiyangs place every week, seriously, ALOT. though i'm not good now yet but how i was last year is so much worse. HAHAHHA and then remembering the friday nights that were dedicated to singing and the laughter filled class with the ultimate jiche laoshi. without you, it'll never be the same. i could remember us working hard for performances, from planning of harmony to costumes and makeup... till now, it still tears me up inside, its just so silly of you to go just like that. you're one of the strongest females that i've ever known and i really do miss you so much.

hokay i think its pretty much enough for now!

well happy chinese new year to everyone!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012 //i'm the rockstar 4:17 AM

NEW BLOG SKIN

wheee i just changed my blog skin. but it think i'll change it again. LOL

//i'm the rockstar 1:45 AM

finally

i love you my dearest BenHo

its been only 7 months and i already want to be with you for 7000 years.

its been a long time since i last updated, THUS, i', gonna throw in loads of random photos that i have in my phone!!! hehs! dated from 3 months ago or so i guess ^^

forgive the past and give future a chance

i'm happy now (;

Saturday, October 8, 2011 //i'm the rockstar 7:32 PM

EXPOSED

i know this looks bloody scary,

but i promised that i would do this like 1000 years ago,

this is extremely thick make up by the way

1. contact lens

2. fake lashes

3. foundation and all that shit

4. blusher

5. shading powder

6. mascara

7. highlight creame

8. eyeshadow (black, white, shades of brown)

9. liquid eyeliner

cover half the face and check out the difference yourself, budden the side without makeup is actually the uglier side of my face. LOL since i wanted to do this, must as well make the difference super obvious right?

total zero makeup

super alot alot alot of makeup.

okay, totally exposing myself.

LOL i'm bloody scary. zzzz

anyways, i would never put such think makeup on normal days, i'll feel damn pek cek if i do.

cant update all the other stuffs till like months later. i'm lazy and i dont know where to start.

hogay, GOOD DAY ^^

Sunday, September 11, 2011 //i'm the rockstar 6:25 PM

I SWEAR I'LL UPDATE NEXT WEEK

Wednesday, August 17, 2011 //i'm the rockstar 5:04 PM

realise

its not easy for females to give super obvious hints, so when we do, PLEASE CATCH THEM. & if you're freaking trying to avoid it then at least tell us why so we wont look like some stupid idiot holding on to the thought and tryinng very hard to persuade ourselves that YOU HAVENT CAUGHT THE BLOODY HINT YET.

Monday, August 15, 2011 //i'm the rockstar 4:36 PM

MY LAST TEENAGE YEAR :(

1st day of my birthday celebration @ MBS!
firstly thanks to DEAREST MUMMY for getting the room early!
then THANKS TO ALL WHO CAME OVER FOR MY BIRTHDAY! ;D

sister chan, brother chan, weiliang lao da
wanzhen, peishan, weesong, waikun, jaryl, clauson, bobby, zhengkai (plus desmonds heart and ruisong's well wishes)

kaming, reece & julia, zhiwei, desmond,

my dear girls <3

we had alot of failed jump shots. zzzz

fed everyone cake! ;D

kaming! he was at the casino most of the time, really.

my personal body guards ;D

the 2 that came over after work despite being tired :')

oh wells, i had fun and i was pretty tired that day since i was rushing all sorts of stuff 2 days before and havent really slept for 2 or 3 nights.

thank you people<3
day II shall be up when my bby girls upload the photos ;D