Wednesday, September 9, 2009
its just
只是你，不小心拉错了手
现在要回头不想，一错再错
12:29 AM
Monday, August 31, 2009
okay, a happy post
i'm not emo, i'm just thinking.
basically i love my class! i love my clique.
things are always so nice around them. i'll never feel left out
never
i hate that damn feeling. i hate the feeling of not knowing anything
i hate the being insensible because of lack of information
i hate looking at pictures with everyones happy faces without mine.
i hate not being with the group of people i want to be with
i hate being just nothing but a passerby
i hate being hated
i hate being un loved
i hate being neutral and nothing more
i hate it when i start thinking in a negative way
and this stuffs never happened in my class(class clique! stel,hs,vals,twin,gc....) & my clique(the usual ps,wz,wk,rs,cs,bob,des). i enjoy every minute with them. i enjoy the attention (:
9:37 PM
its a wake up call
its time i realised, its time i stop dwelling.
an outcast or the un-important role.
most people wont sense my presence if i dont speak
i dont stand out in the crowd, i'm always the passerby.
i can't reach the lime light. on stage or in ones eye.
predestined.
i'm not the blessed one.
i'll be quitting all this soon. i dont belong to the stage or behind the stage
i cant even get a tiny bit of the star glamour.
i'll find another way out.
i'll search for a new aim in life.
i will, i must.
most people wont sense my presence if i dont speak
i dont stand out in the crowd, i'm always the passerby.
i can't reach the lime light. on stage or in ones eye.
是羡慕？还是妒忌？
那种望着自己一生中，
最想要的生活
属于和你较亲密的人
他拥有你的梦
让你也在那梦中
但是梦里的主角不是你
你能看得一清二楚，
他在渐渐的，毫无目标的，
不小心的，抢走了你的梦
然后让你清楚明白了解，
那并不属于你
而你已不小失去了那机会
因为你不曾发现你曾有过那机会
你拥有我想要的
只要看着你，听着你说这你的每天
我心里的后悔
就变得越来越沉重
几乎压得我快窒息了。
我讨厌这样的我，
我不想被自己淹没。
那样的心酸你明白吗？
友？
那种望着自己一生中，
最想要的生活
属于和你较亲密的人
他拥有你的梦
让你也在那梦中
但是梦里的主角不是你
你能看得一清二楚，
他在渐渐的，毫无目标的，
不小心的，抢走了你的梦
然后让你清楚明白了解，
那并不属于你
而你已不小失去了那机会
因为你不曾发现你曾有过那机会
你拥有我想要的
只要看着你，听着你说这你的每天
我心里的后悔
就变得越来越沉重
几乎压得我快窒息了。
我讨厌这样的我，
我不想被自己淹没。
那样的心酸你明白吗？
友？
predestined.
i'm not the blessed one.
i'll be quitting all this soon. i dont belong to the stage or behind the stage
i cant even get a tiny bit of the star glamour.
i'll find another way out.
i'll search for a new aim in life.
i will, i must.
8:54 PM
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
exams *sighs*
你说的每句对白，
都像是乌云在遮盖
我天空残留的一点光彩
YES PEOPLE! LETS CHIONG OUR ADs FOR STATS!
i cant focus -.- pray for me lahhh...
10:10 PM
Saturday, July 18, 2009
thoughts
trauma.
i'm seventeen (soon) i dream, i try, accomplishments? yet to
seriously, i find myself currently living without aim. i'm in a mess that i've created for myself. how will i be in the future? theres nothing i'm proud of. i'm finding somthing i can be proud of. i posses no great skill that i would be able to rely on in the future.
no i'm not thinking too much
there are things and events that i cant confide in anyone.
i'll hug my speakers, i listen to songs that makes me cry.
thats the only way.
thoughts are flooding me whenever i'm alone. i dont know why things just keep comming back in dreams. i'm scared, i'm crawling, i cant speak, i dont want to go to sleep anymore. i'm really gonna drown soon, i screamed but it was silent.
yes, i speak random and i'm not emo.
i kept smilling, but whats under that sunshine? rainbow?
maybe.
4:04 PM
abit a time
i'm gonna update alil of the past few months a post.
june:
VS EXAM
yes, indeed, i was very not prepared due to school's common test. seeing all the others giving it their best shot, i felt damn guilty, my heart ached like hell. anyway, its over.
my beloved VS people ;D
3:34 PM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
reasons why i aint updating
betty isnt updating beacuse
1) theres too much to update
2) shes too lazy to update
3) ughhhs...
4) ahhhh
5) because shes betty chan (:
these are the 5 main reasons thats stopping her from updating.
and when is soon?!
2:33 PM
